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gracefulness & intelligence

what the world needs is a return to sweetness ~ princess from roman holiday

i think the world needs more gracefulness, enchantment, lovliness & magic. this is my only embodiment from now on, everything else is unacceptable to me. i will not embody this philosophy half way anymore, yet in a whole state of being.

to live graceful & intelligent in one’s truth is to live righteously.

“Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth.” – Henry David Thoreau

“Say not, “I have found the truth,” but rather, “I have found a truth.”
Say not, “I have found the path of the soul.” Say rather, “I have met the soul walking upon my path.”
For the soul walks upon all paths.
The soul walks not upon a line, neither does it grow like a reed.
The soul unfolds itself, like a lotus of countless petals.”

― Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet

Damien Rice’s “Hypnosis” from Kahlil Gibran’s The Prophet…

sophia wisdom




my favorite type of dance ~*~ # Lily dance # Sophia

“Don’t condemn sensuality. It has been condemned by the whole world, and because of their condemnation, the energy that can flower in sensuality moves into perversions, jealousy, anger, hatred — a kind of life which is dry, with no juice. Sensuousness is one of the greatest blessings to humanity. It is your sensitivity, it is your consciousness. Consciousness filtering through the body is what sensousness is.”


Sophia wisdom stems from ancient paganism & mystic wisdom of the goddess. the wholeness & healthy equilibrium of the feminine essence. fertility & beauty at its finest in body, mind, & spirit. wisdom as an equalizing essence that keeps the feminine fertile & in healthy equilibrium, in body, mind, spirit. its a higher consciousness of health, wellness, & wholisitc ancient science. pagan & earth wisdom, that honors the female ways of life, wisdom, & existence. tribal wisdom, pagan wisdom, wholisitc wisdom, spiritual wisdom, from around the world that honors this philosophy, & some religions, that honor science & wholisitc systems, feminine beauty & wholeness.

inequality of women & men, yet equal rights.

not marrying into men in all ways body, mind, & spirit, total equality yet equal or unequal rights. not worshipping the male ego & an invisible god. this isn’t our way, thus don’t condemn us for not believing in your way. we are non violent & tolerant, yet intolerant to ignorance, & have strong beliefs based on beauty, science, & the inequality of women & men, yet equal rights. some of us are tolerant of sexual identities, preferences, etc, yet cherish our ways of inequality of man & woman.

we are not evil, demons, anti-christ, satanic. we have been persecuted since the beginning of false prophets, because of our science & knowledge.

we are ancient pagans, wholisitc scientists,  shawomen,  ancient philosophers. our wisdom has been stolen & bastardised,  my ancestors  have been condemned, persecuted, raped, burned at the stake, christianized to some extent.  some of us have fled, & fled, & fled, until we were free to practice science openly.

we are the pa cycle, the pattern in the matter, the nagas, the ancients, we belong to earth & goddess, to wisdom & science.

do not condemn us for our beliefs


do not condemn us women for our spiritual essence or religion

do not condemn us women for our wisdom, philosophy , intellect & science

do not condemn us women for giving birth to babies, garden, home, creativity & intellect, do not condemn us women for fertility & pure vitality

do not condemn sensuality in us women in pure intention & essence, not used for anything other than expression & aliveness.

do not condemn us women within our individuality, self sustainability & purpose

do not condemn us women for our fibonacci sequence, beauty, & equilibrium in our chakra system. do not condemn our openess in each chakra point, our health & wholeness.

we are to be respected, honored & adored

# lila wisdom # wisdom Sophia # independence & interdependence # wholeness

arabian nights

The Arabian Nights

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Lebanese author Wafa’ Tarnowska opens a window onto the Arab world with her magnificent new translation of eight stories from A Thousand and One Nights. This edition is notable for combining favourites such as ‘Aladdin and the Wonderful Lamp’ with less familiar tales such as ‘The Diamond Anklet’ and ‘The Speaking Bird and the Singing Tree’. The collection also features the frame story about Shahriyar and Shahrazade. A classic of world literature, newly translated by an Arab author who has divided her adult life between Europe and the Middle East, and who has based this retelling on a fourteenth-century Syrian manuscript. Sumptuous illustrations by French illustrator Carole Henaff, who has travelled in the Arab world and now lives with her family in Barcelona. (less)


all posts, are posted by me. i have posted my original writings, other’s writings, such as Osho’s philosophy,  & various information. i have posted photography & paintings to go along with some of the writing & information i have posted. i have done my best to be respectful, & have sussed out the photographers & artists of such work to give credit to their work. much of the photography & art work is randomly found, thus some go unknown.


giving & receiving

giving & receiving

so recently, the focus has been around giving & receiving. giving & receiving is an action & reaction. what ever is given is received. harmony is exchange. when two people give & two people receive at once. this is equilibrium. there are so many types of giving. from the spiritual: prayers, from the mental: expressions of intellect & wisdom, from the emotional: expressions of emotions, from the physical: giving of something in the physical & material way, like donating blood.

these are the different ways in human giving. to be a giver, one prays or meditates, one gives of their intellect & wisdom, one gives of their genuine emotions, one gives in the physical. this is what it means to be a giver.

empowered giving, is “giving rightly” which is subjective, giving rightly, is giving to resonance, giving to that which is going to be appreciated & received with gratitude. giving rightly is giving with pure intention to enhance or uplift another. giving rightly is expecting nothing but gratitude from the receiver, as some people may, send prayers, thank, & give genuine emotional expression, & may not be able to give back in the physical or material, such as money or things. giving rightly does not come with strings attached. it is unconditional.

what is right or wrong? well, that’s subjective to the giver & receiver.

dis-empowered giving or “giving wrongly”, is subjective. its giving to dissonance, its giving to that which is not appreciated, not received in gratitude. its giving with strings attached, conditions, & expectations. its giving to degrade another, lessen another, its giving with ill intentions. this is a form of low consciousness giving, low consciousness giving will not be received well. in fact, giving wrongly is taking, disguised as giving.

ways in which i give. ~*~

spiritually, i give to the earth & cosmos. nature & wildlife. i meditate in nature, to nature, & about nature in all of its cyclic forms.

mentally, i give to myself, my intellect & wisdom, & i simply express myself, thus giving the world, what i express. perhaps, others may be inspired, to do the same with themselves. this is a selfless form of self awareness. i express my intellect & wisdom, my thoughts, wisdom learned from my life’s experiences, for others to resonate or not. i’m appreciative of those who resonate & appreciate what i express. perhaps i will inspire healing, empowerment, integration, self awareness, individuality, life wisdom, inner peace, & wholeness of my expressions for others to do the same in their own way.

i give nature, animals, & women a voice. i’m not a voice for all women, yet, i’m a voice for the voiceless, the oppressed women in the world, the whole plight of feminine existence in society for freedom & equal rights, standing up against injustices, & patriarchal abuse. i’m a voice for highly sensitive women, infp/j women, women who feel out of place in a strange & ill society, for women to know, they are not alone. i’m a voice for them, in a way, because i’m a voice for myself. when i stand up for myself, i stand up for many women, i express my own personal expressions & experiences for myself, perhaps inspiring women to do the same for themselves, to heal, empower, individualize, rise, & be free in themselves. to take a stand for themselves & women who resonate or are in need.
i’m a wholisitc feminist, meaning no biological race or class of women in the world is left out of my view point of intellectual & philosophical rights & freedoms.

this is a very selfless gift, i could be non expressive of myself in all ways, not expressing anything, not giving anything of myself, this would be selfish. i’m consciousness expression, to have a consciousness & not express as such would be selfish.

emotionally, the same can be applied in an emotional way as a mental way. i give of myself through my authentic, graceful, & intelligent emotions. i express myself. to hold my emotions back, & not express myself genuinely & openly in a assertive way, would be selfish.

physically, i take care of myself the best i can, my body in my temple, thus i’m an example for others to do the same. i give my physical essence, face to face to those i resonate with, i give cheek kisses, i hold hands, i dance, i’m pure sensuality. i’m physical shakti.
i give my time & physical energy to that which is appreciated.
i give blood, i give money to people severely in need, even when i’m on my last dime, i give poetry, music (i sing), art, handmade artisan products, fresh produce, flowers, & meaningful gifts, to those i deeply care for. i give, knowing my giving will be received with a pure smile.

i give my genuine smile. it’s my favorite gift to give, & the gift most people, even total strangers appreciate the most, as the smile is a universal language.

i’m aware of the philosophy of we not me. i’m aware of these spiritual teachers who say “i” is the most selfish word there is, that we is much more important than me. i have studied their philosophy in depth a long time ago.
“i” stands for individuality. the individual must heal first, must empower first, must integrate within themselves first, before “i”ntegrating into society, within that self integration, there is a healthy conscious “me”, before a healthy integrated “we” society. this is healing from the inside out, true healing of self & society. many spiritual teachers teach healing from the outside in, “we” before “me”, healing “through” others. that is the most toxic form of healing.

Osho teaches people to be super selfish with the “i”. to be individual, to integrate in oneself, in one’s own way, heal, empower, integrate in oneself before integrating into society. he teaches healing from the inside out. for if there is a healthy “me”, then there is a healthy “we”. Osho is my brahma, thus i teach individuality & integration in true harmony as well.


this december, i’m donating my blood to people in need.



my new/current personal life path number 3>

Numerology Life Path Number 3
By Life Script Doctor November 29, 2014 Astrology & Numerology No Comments
“Remaining childish is a tremendous state of innocence.”
-John Lydon

life path 3

Life Path Number 3 has a lot of child like qualities. In Numerology, three is considered to have mystical qualities. People with life path 3 are very dynamic and usually have a lot of energy to spend. Number three desires immediate emotional response and is very direct, that is why people with life path number 3 often viewed by others as eternal children. If numerology number 1 has male energy qualities, numerology number 2 has female energy qualities – numerology number 3 has strong connection to child like energies (1+2=3). Number 3 is also connected to intellect, perception of ideas and forms. Behind the quality of numerology number 3 one can find thoughts that are perceived but not yet manifested. The keywords behind number 3 are enlightenment and knowledge.

People with life path number 3 have to find joy from self realization and be open towards positive emotions from trying new interesting things. If they find the source for pure joy and share it with others, they will be able to be loved and accepted in society. People with life path number 3 often find themselves in some sort of a job where they can realize their creative potential. You can be creative not only in arts, but also in business or science. The urge to realize their own creative essence of life path 3 drives people to have more than one interest in life (as well as in love) and because of their creative impulse they can do something without giving much thought to it. People whose life path number is 3 often live today without giving much thought for tomorrow. It is just the way they usually cope with the hardships of life. They are often guided by emotions and appreciate good humor. They could be perceived as not too sensitive to others, just like a child who is up to something – they concentrate on what they want and what brings them joy. People with life path 3 are usually good listeners and speakers.
The energy of life path number 3 makes people with this number believe that everything will work out somehow and they are often very optimistic about things (sometimes even too much). They have to be careful and not to fall under the influence of other people’s opinions. Being practical is not the quality of life path 3 and many people could find them eccentric.

“Life path number 3 is an enlightened child with inner knowledge.”

padmadarsvati ~*~

i gave myself a goddess name for good.  Padmadarsvati. its my spirit name or essence.  this name fits me perfect. padmavati is a jain goddess, & sarasvati  is a goddess of wisdom, literary, art, music & lila. thus the combination of these goddesses encompasses me as a goddess.



my symbology  & attire consists of an eight pointed star adorned with a crescent waxing moon, symbolizing birth, spring, & dawn. my hair is braided in a long naga braid down my back, with silver  lily or lotus petal earrings & a light blue bindi above a cresent moon. silver jewlery adorns my crown & i wear a silver ring in my nose. i’m adorned with silver thick bracelets or armor.  my attire is light bluish green & flowy & sometimes a multi colored saree or a black saree with white stars.  i’m standing or seated on a white lotus or on a lily pad under an ash tree near a water fall. i have two, four, or eight arms. a spotted deer stands by my side, or i’m surrounded by animals,  deer,  wolf,  swan, peacock,  lynx with wings,  white winged horse, humming bird, blue eagle,  sea lion, dolphin,  blue morpho butterflies,  dragon flies, squirrel, ash beatles, jaguar,  cobra,  flamingo,  laughing hyena, black cat &  sheep. my two arms hold a blue lotus & a scroll. my four arms hold a blue lotus, scroll, paintbrush, & tambourine. my eight arms hold blue lotus, scroll, paintbrush, tambourine, mirror, & beads shaped like a tall vase or an actual tall vase or skittle filled with aether. i’m surrounded by greenery symbolizing spring, with lilies, jasmine, honey suckle & orange blossom.

this will be one of my paintings in honor of myself. ~*~