seasons, cycles, & life phases oh my
# psychology # cyclic philosophy # harmony # authenticity
writing inspired by Clarissa Pinkola Estes author of “women who run with the wolves”
living with the seasons & cycles of nature is one thing, living with the seasons & cycles of self is another, yet one in the same.
“The psyches and souls of women have their own cycles and seasons of doing and solitude, running and staying, being involved and being removed, questing and resting, creating and incubating, being of the world and returning to the soul-place” ~Clarissa Pinkola Estes author of ” Women Who Run with the Wolves.” this is the art of true “wildness”
this is more natural for women than men, as we intrinsically cycle with & like the moon, much more potently.
we women (wemoon) have our natural life cycles of maiden, mother, & crone.
some women, like myself, are late bloomers, we are maidens well into our thirties.
we go through our life phases of ever evolving, learning, & being.
this process should be protected & respected in all societies.
in my phases in cycles, as a highly sensitive woman, i have been in tune with my ever evolving phases & cycles. i have needed to breathe in with solitude, be removed, integrate in my soul space, longer & deeper than most women. this is especially true during the late fall & winter seasons, & during the new moon, & old moon waning, & during times in my life of deeper healing, empowering, & integrating creatively. some phases last longer than others, i may stay in an incubating phase for three months or three years if i need to. i have always been in tune with my natural cycles & the cycles of nature. a woman’s “clear & intelligent” intuition never fails her, if she listens closely. this is being authentic & true to oneself & true empowerment. over time, the ebb & flow of internal & external cycles are more even keeled & harmonious, this is maturity, & when one is younger there is that much more to heal, learn, empower, & integrate into internal & external harmony.
many societies are designed to not honor this natural occurrence of deep evolution at a core level & living in harmony with this natural internal & external cycle of human nature & living in harmony with the earth. perhaps, that is why i support philosophy & societal designing such as the venus project & other such ways of thinking.
women who honor this cycle within themselves & with nature go deep into themselves & thus when we quest & are in the world (not of it) we have that much more authentic vivaciousness to create, co create, & share with resonant people(the subjectively right people). this is why i’m an avid protector of the “individual”, solitude, incubation, meditation, creation within. that is the time for “individual” healing, empowering, integrating & harmonizing within. one can be harmony within, yet not be empowered enough, to protect one’s inner harmony among the disharmony of the world. this is chaos for the individual. i know, i’ve been there in my younger youth. this takes experience, knowledge, & wisdom.
i protect this individual process fiercely in myself, & i protect this process for other resonating people if asked, i’m one to hold space for this process to occur & protect & defend other resonating people in my life who i’m close to, who ask me to. this is my loyal inner wolf to myself & others.
breathing in for a woman, is like a woman being on her menstrual cycle, would you mess with a woman, disturb a woman, during this time? i didn’t think so. breathing out for a woman, is like a woman during her phase of ovulation, questing & being in the world.
just like a wolf, the individual must heal on their own, lick their wounds first before going back out into the wild. if this process does not occur, you have wounded wolves inflicting wounds onto other wolves, & other wolves trying to protect themselves terribly & defensively so.
society is that of a bunch of wounded wolves inflicting wounds onto each other, because true natural evolutionary cycles are not honored, living with nature is not honored, thus people live in an outside in society, & against their very nature, full of collective chaos. this is why societies are so ill. people are forced to go against their very nature in a 3d matrix control grid of human slavery.
in my personal journey, i have always honored my cycles, yet have had to fiercely protect my cycles from, intrusive, aggressive, boundary crossing, energy, from ignorance. in my naivete, i was not as empowered in my intuition, & protection as i am now, i was too graceful, naive, & held some victim consciousness.
in my personal cycles of ever healing, evolving, empowering, integrating, & inner harmony, which i have been deeply loyal to myself all of my life, & this has not been honored, because society does not allow true whole & conscious healthy women, in fact, society will try to suppress consciousness of individuals, & disturb this process by all means to be conditioned & brainwashed to do the opposite, which i have refused.
when i’m breathing into my self & into my life, i’m vulnerable, raw, & protective of myself. my focus is from inner healing to inner harmony. no one can be their whole healed integrated self without their own process, & no society of people can be whole, healed, empowered, integrated, & harmonized without the individual process first. i’m an example of the self aware, conscious individual & i refuse to connect with others & mob psychologies who are not.
in my process & cycle of breathing in, i’m focused inward, thus my healing, learning, empowering, & integrating for harmony within means everything to me, its most important. i attain great knowledge, wisdom, inner creation & expression of myself, & self nurturing, self love, care, & elation during this cycle. i’m intensely creative. this is evolution of self in an individual sense.
in my process & cycles of breathing out, i’m focused on my environment & surroundings, i’m creative, questing, being in the world in my integrated expressions. i’m grounding my knowledge, wisdom, creations, & expressions into my external environment & sharing with resonating kin. i’m co-creating.
learning more equilibrium with these inward & outward cycles is harmony, & some phases & cycles last longer than others depending on what is being integrated on an internal level or external level.
when i’m breathing into myself & life, i’m like a meditating dakini with a long braid of hair down my back, & flowy clothing. my external surroundings are not as important as my internal. when one goes on a retreat of some kind, they leave their environment & go to a place where their sole purpose is to go with in, an environment of minimalist external stimulation, external responsibility, distractions, & the practicalities of day to day living. the focus & work is on an internal level. thus when breathing out, everything is integrated, therefore, grounded in harmony, on the internal & external level of living. this is true harmony within & without. to disturb this process is murderous of the soul.
“princess mono noke noke?” “who’s there?” princess Mononoke responds. “external disturbance” they reply. “go into yourselves, not me” Princess Mononoke responds.
this is why i have learned that i have to work for myself as a domestic goddess, paradise grower, floral designer, culinary artist, writer, painter, artisan, violinista, creative work from home job & in the future a flexible career such as real estate, helping other’s find a unique sanctuary of their own that suits their needs. as a writer & artist i can flow into my breathing in cycles with harmony, because its a deeply creative space for me.
most people have no concept of these natural cycles, they can’t even fathom being alone with themselves. aloneness, does not equate to lonliness.
aloneness is presence, fullness, aliveness, joy of being, overflowing love. one is complete. nobody is needed, one is enough.
how many people feel this way? not many. how many people are afraid to be alone with themselves? a lot. how many people feel so lonely inside, when they see a solitary person, thinking to themselves, “they must be lonely”? too many people. i have found that most people are extroverts. they need everything outside of themselves. this includes, healing through others, manipulating others to get what they lack, want, or need, (usually to fill an emotional need or an ego) projecting onto others, (not owning their own issues), getting temporary superficial attention, recognition, & validation from others. these people are too concerned with others yet “for themselves” which is selfish, not true selflessness, & have no self awareness, these people are not self aware, conscious people, they are not emotionally & psychologically intelligent & healthy. these type of people are usually very charming & popular, some of which are very unhealthy, crossing the lines into psychopathy, sociopathy, & narcopathy. i stray from such people, i have learned how to protect myself from such people.
i’m more attuned to others who are like myself. more introverted & deeply self aware. connections of such kinds, are resonant to me. there is a natural purity, trust, understanding, seeing, intelligence, integrity, & vivacious harmony. in tune, respect is natural, energy is fluid, understanding is easy, & co creation is dynamic. two or more whole individuals living in equilibrium & harmony sharing with integrity. that is a crystal wolf pack.
a special thanks to dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes for her creativity & wisdom as a woman & writer. an inspiration to me when i first read her book when it came out in 1992 & have re read it through my twenties & thirties, gaining new perspectives from it each time i have read it, because of my evolution & life experiences.