my beauty regimen
i have always been into natural health & beauty. i have been quite healthy most of my life. i have been somewhat perfectionistic with the physical aspect of myself & my environment. this includes health, beauty & spa regimens, my physical appearance, & fashion. this has been ingrained in me. i have most often been equalized in my physical, emotional, mental, & spiritual health & beauty throughout my life. i have struggled with having a perfectionistic nature, a pattern & cycle i had learned to transcend. my house & myself always had to be perfect. i have had a good equilibrium in myself otherwise.
through certain phases of my life i was not equalized. i would keep myself & my environment feng shuied or “qiafied” to a degree, yet not perfectionistic, or i would simply be a dreamer & lived in a dreamer’s house (bohemian artist). certain short phases of my life, i had felt like i was camping. i let my hair grow long wavy & wild, i preferred an au naturale essence in myself. my energy was more infused in my emotional well being, healing, empowering, integrating, equalizing my self & my life for inner peace. as i have grown wiser & through my experiences, inner peace is royalty. my emotional energy would also be infused in my creativity, whether it writing, designing, creative projects, gardening, & painting. my energy would also be infused in my psychological well being, intellectual pursuits, & integrating was i was learning (think college student). my spiritual energy was infusing into my intellect, thus at times, i had felt like i looked like i had been camping or a carefree artist. i had realized over the years, that i was superficially judged when in such phases in myself. i was treated differently. as a social scientist, this intrigued me, how differently people treated me. people held less respect for me, because my energy in myself wasn’t equalized & the potential of my natural beauty, not highlighted or perfected. just as when my olive tone skin turns dark tan in the summer if i had been outdoors a lot, some people treated me different based on my skin color. i found that quite interesting as well. if i presented myself in an equalized way, meaning harmonious with my physical, emotional, mental, & spiritual essence i was respected by many, & disrespected by many (depending upon class structures). another interesting fact is, that during certain social situations, if i was under the influence of alcohol & let my free spirited, loving nature shine, i was treated with disrespect by some, the more vulnerable, kind, adoring of the uniqueness of men & women, & free spirited i was, that was seen as a weakness by some, as opposed to my natural sober, shy, reserved nature. under the influence of alcohol, my inner child is shy yet lively, & is swayed easily, thus i’m not in an empowered state in my self, i’m in the moment feeling free in myself, & my energy is easily misunderstood, by people who hold unhealthy egos. another interesting fact, i have always been treated with way more respect when i was out anywhere, at any time with other people, as opposed to vulnerable & alone. people fear aloneness within themselves & when seeing someone alone, they equate that to loneliness & or something must be wrong with the alone person. i’m also, more likely at risk of being taken advantage of & mistreated while alone. another interesting fact, is that i have been more respected at my normal healthy toned weight of 117 – 120 lbs than if i gained ten pounds or so, or when i was on my moon cycle carrying water weight. an equalized, healthy, toned physique is a sign of health & procreation, thus is scientifically more attractive & youthful looking. however, culturally, that varied because of men who are culturally ingrained in finding my more curvaceous body more attractive.
these are all interesting facts & unintended social experiments that i had observed through my journey in life in my ever evolving phases.
you can take the girl out of science class, but you can’t take the science out of the girl. i have been an unintentional scientist my whole life. awareness & observation.
what i have learned through my ever evolving phases, experiences, & journey in life.
many people will make instantaneous superficial judgements about others from their subjective perspective reality, instead of intelligent wholistic thinking & discernments from a wholisitc intelligent perspective reality.
many people are racist as hell
many people hold ignorant prejudices
many people are sexist, this goes for both men & women
many people do not have the empathy gene
many people lack compassion
many people are extrovertedly selfish
many people are ignorant (when politicians are arguing if intelligent wholisitc science is real or not, we have a real problem)
many people are unaware of themselves & of those around them
most people do not use wholisitc thinking
i have decided to share my beauty regimen, this isn’t an ordinary beauty regimen of health, beauty, spa, & fashion. i have writings, posts, & a pinterest for such things. this is an inner beauty regimen. these are things that i have always done.
i use wholisitc thinking in terms of everything.
i use my subjective discernments about places, people, & situations. such as what is safe or unsafe, what resonates with me & doesn’t. i do this without instantaneous superficial judgements about what it is i’m discerning.
it’s ingrained in me not to be racist. my consciousness is the least racist person. race is a social construct mostly based on geography, cultures, & nations. true race is biological.
i try not to be prejudiced about anything. awareness & reason is important to me.
i’m not sexist.
35% of my genome contains empathy
i have compassion, yet i do not practice idiot compassion. i have compassion for some dissonance, i have compassion for where people are at in themselves & in their lives. i do not have compassion toward harmful dissonance, disrespectful, or abusive energy my compassion is null.
if someone is having difficulty with something or are in a difficult space in themselves or lives, sad, or not equalized where their energy is put forth toward something important that throws them off balance (like college or raising young children), i have compassion, i help them if asked, if its safe & intelligent for me to do so, & if i’m equalized in myself.
i have more compassion for people i see often, because sometimes, people have their bad days, thus i have more compassion for them, because i see them on their good days.
i have compassion for people who are struggling in any way, the last thing i would want to do is burden or hinder them in any way.
i prefer wholisitc intelligent compassionate solutions to anything.
i respect people who are different than myself in ways of culture, class, & different valid sane beliefs & perspectives.
i’m neutral most often, yet my smile is my universal language, if my smile brings a smile to someone else, i feel that is a trait of beauty.
if i am met with dissonance or more dissonance than resonance, (which is subjective) low dense consciousness or ignorance, i try to ignore, speak my truth from a sophisticated intellectual perspective, instead of self righteously or sarcastically, (this aspect of myself has been evolving) i have not always been internally beautiful in this regard.
this is my inner beauty regimen. i believe that beauty is physical, & can be measured by symmetry & science, yet as Kahlil Gibran so eloquently put it, beauty is found in the light of the heart.